hari pling pnting...

lama dah aku xctr dlm ni...mklumlah sibuk ngn final exam..hari ni aku exam akaun teori..fuh..mmg dasyat lar aku jwb...mklumlah last minit stdy..aku pun xtau lar apa yg aku jwb yg pnting aku x tggl ksong..smlm bru aku smpai kat ostel..sbnr nya aku dah smpai ktn pkul 3 lbih..tggu bus pnyer psl lar lmbt..tpon spupu(k.zura)dtg ambik lmbt plak..xsngka plak ye ada plan nk g umah kwn ye..pahtu aku pum ikut lar skali..huhu...mls nk blik ostel lg..aku dah niat nk smpai lmbt kat ostel psl nya aku xn bertemu muka ngn saing2 aku...msih rasa skit di hati ni..tp aku sbr je..nsib lar romate aku ni ok mrh nya pum dah reda..tp aku ttp ngn niat aku nk brubah jd diam kat sini..aku nk fokus kat stdy je..mls aku nk lyn benda kecik2 ni...smua dah bsr lntk ar...ptg td lps exam aku g blik mentor aku..ye suh aku isi borg personal apa entah..mklumat tntg diri aku je pum..lps isi tu aku nk blik ostel..ujan lbt nya..aku duk kat koridor dulu nmpk lar kete ain..niat aku nk tumpang psl nya ujan..dia mcm x nmpk aku je..xtau lar nmpk ke x...dia g strek je..ermm..sdih jgk tp nk wak mcm mana...biar jelah kete dia...aku x kisah pum..harap2 dia gembira lar kan..smoga bile dia dlm kesusahan ada jgk org yg akn sudi tlg ye..amin..aku xkisah pum mandi hujan pum...skit pale jgk main hujan ni..last2 slin bju tdur..huhu..bgun2 dah nk msuk wktu garid..kat ostel aku jd mcm org asing lar..ermm'..nk wak mcm mana skit hati..aku mls nk tgur...ain snyum lar lg kat aku.asila...ermm' aku rasa mcm dah naik bnci kat dia..xtau lar knp...time susah keseorgn tau plak cari aku mcm sem lps..sem ni org dah sng hati agaknya tu..aku mls lar nk lyn dia..buat lar ye tu muka poyo..aku pum mls nk tgk muka dia...muka rasa x berslh..bnyk bnda aku terasa hati ngn dia org..tp sape lah aku nk slh kan org kan..smua org wak slh..xpe lar lps sem ni..aku say bye2 lar smua..mntk ampun..xtau lar bile lg nk jupe..rasa nya mcm dah xjupe...aku rndu kwn2 smakh dulu..lg best..sporting..harap2 blik nnti dpt jupe member2 lama..dah aku pun di pnjgkan umur...harap2 smua org hdup di berkati..amin..
psl mamat yg aku xtau nama tu..smlm ye ada luah prasaan susah hati dia tu..aku tau smua org ada mslh..tp kalo kita hdpi ngn tenang insyaallah mslh tu akan jd mudah..dia ada ckp smoga aku ni kekal jd mlik ye slamanya...apa mksud dia ae...dia suka aku ke??cinta aku ke??syg??harap2 xlar..aku bkn prmpuan yg baik utk dia..dia tu terlalu baik..aku cuma anggap dia kwn je..aku xnk bercinta smua tu buat aku derita je..ckup lar ngn apa aku alami slme ni..pkwe aku??aku pun xtau apa prsaan aku kat dia..mls lar aku nk mkir..aku pum mls nk msg n tpon dia..harap2 dia sihat n bhgia lar..aku kalo boleh dah nk contact dia..aku nk lupa kan kisah silam aku dulu..biar lar aku cinta pd yg 1,allah swt...berkwn biar beribu bercinta biar 1..aku ltk kan jdoh aku di tgn allah smoga dia jdoh kn aku dgn prg2 yg baik,boleh trima aku seadanya serta boleh bimbing aku jln NYA..amin...andai aku tiada jdoh aku reda dgn ketentuan nya..aku msih bnyk tggjwb sbg seorg ank n seorg kakak yg sulung..aku harap aku akn tunaikan kwjipan aku ni dgn hati yg ikhlas dah tbh...

hati ku rasa amat skit shgga x snggup berthn..:(

hari ni mcm2 terjd dlm hdup aku...aku xtau nk kta apa...dgn smgt yg di bri mamat tu kat aku..aku rasa sngt di hrgai..aku msih xtau nama ye jd aku pggl mamat jelah..huhu hari ni aku bgun lwt tdur...lps mandi je romate ku bertnya kt aku..ada x nama ye naik..psl ada org kata kat ye..mula2 aku xphm..lps dia jelas kat aku bru aku phm..aku tau dia mrh kat aku..tp aku x sngja..aku xtau smua ni terjd..ni smua gara2 aku saung ain..slh ke aku grau..xsngka bnda ni jd ke bsr..aku cuma ckp kat ain knp nk tpu aku kalo dah dtg ngn kete..romate aku dah ctr smua kat aku..aku tnya romate aku dtg ngn ape kat ostel..ye jwb mai ngn ain...slh ke aku ckp mcm tu...hri ni mmg aku xthn sngt jd lps romate aku g exam aku trus je bla..aku jnji aku xkn sbut nama ye lg..n ckp ngn smua org...kalo org nk aku duk sorg..ok fine!!aku duk sorg..jgn gnggu aku lps ni...apa nk jd..jd lar...dulu masa aku xde romate xde plak nk bnyi mulut..bile aku ada romate mcm2 plak bnyi..dah lar aku mslh bribu2..tmbul plak mslh ni..slma ni aku mkn sorg kuar sorg xde plak nk bnyi..aku wak slh apa smpai nk wak ctr...skit hati mu je pkir..skit hati org lain x mkir...mmg aku nk mrh...knp slh org lain..nama romate aku nk naik nya..bkn nya ye wak apa2 pum...slh ke kalo aku nk duk blik aku dri aku duk g tah lain..kalo xmboh kwn ckp ar xmboh kwn..aku xkisah..kalo org lain boleh hdup sorg aku pum boleh hdup sorg..xmati nya...aku g sana nk bljr bkn nk cri psl..aku boleh ctr sute2 apa yg terasa..tp aku wak snyp aku xmboh cri psl..tp knp jd mcm ni...apa slh aku...??apa aku dah buat..??kat romate mmg aku slh aku sbb naik kan nama ye...tp aku xsngaja...sumpah ar...lps ni aku jnji pd dri aku..yg aku xkn sbut nama ye lg...aku jd pndiam spt mana org nk aku jd..aku akn buat kan dri aku ni x wjud di klgan smua..lntk ar nk ckp apa pum..nk ngta aku ngta ar aku trima...tp tlg ar jgn sabit nama org yg xtau apa2...ckup ar tu...aku letih dah...mls dah aku nk ngis...insyaallah aku akn undur dri dari smua ni...bru ar smua org sng hati kan..gembira..xde nama sape2 yg akn naik..tu ar jnji aku..aku akn wak keje aku sndri..aku xkn msuk cmpur urusan smua org lg..aku g sana nk bljr je..aku syg kwn2 aku..tp kalo kwn2 aku x suka aku..aku akn undur diri...kalo tu yg boleh wak smua org tenang..maaf kan aku di atas smua kslhn aku slma ni n halal kan smua brg yg pernah aku ambik ngn korg smua..aku mntk maaf sngt...aku lari bkn krn rasa berslh tp aku lari krn x mau tmbulkan mslh..xmau nama org yg x berslh naik..tu je...harap smua fhm...

rasa sdkit gembira..huhu

kat sini aku nk kngsi skit kgmbiraan aku...hihi smlm kan sedih..xkn nk sdih skmo kan kena hepi jgk...smlm aku dlm tgh hari aku YM..chat lar ngn mamat ni..aku pum xtnya nama dia apa..yg aku tau umur dia 23..agak2 lar...dah lama xym tu yg smlm ym..xsngka plak dpt kwn ngn mamat ni..best jgk borak ngn ye..dia mhtk no fon..aku rasa mcm caye je kat ye..jd aku bg lar no aku kat ye..just kwn2 je...hihi..dia tnya aku ada pkwe xlg..aku lmbt2 je jwb...mkna nya ada lar tu kan..hihi. tp pkwe xknl sape..klkar x...aku kapel tp xtau rupa..sbnr nya aku pum xpsti apa prsaan aku kat pkwe aku ni..sbnr nya aku kapel ngn dia sbb aku nk bls dndam..lps apa yg dia wak kat aku..bila brknlan ngn mamat ni..entah lar knp aku rasa mcm rasa skit tenang..mklumlah dia pum ckp bnyk mcm aku..tp aku suka bile dgr dia ckp..sore dia mcm spupu aku..huhu
niat aku nk kwn je..aku xnk ada org laki berada dlm hdup aku..aku xnk sjrh silam aku kmbali smula..smua tu berlaku sbb slh aku sndiri..aku malu ngn dri aku..smua ni sbb kelalain aku..tp aku dah brubah slps smua yg terjd kat aku...aku xnk org laki trma aku krn kshan kat aku..jd aku ambik kptusan rejek jelah cinta laki kat aku tu..aku xnk org yg aku syg terluka bila dpt tahu kisah silam aku ni...aku dah niat aku nk brubah..aku akn tggl pkwe aku tnpa khbr brita..aku xnk dgr ape2 dah psl dia..lntak dia lar..aku pum xpasti sma ada dia dah brubah ke blum..yg pasti aku kena tggl kan dia..aku cuma berharap allah akn sntiasa lindungi dia..biar lar jdoh xkn kemana..aku ykin dgn jdoh yg allah tentukan pd aku..buat masa ni..aku nk ttup pntu hati aku buat seorg yg bernama lelaki..tp x slh kan kalo aku berkwn...huhu..k ar lain kali lak aku ctr tntg aku dlm ni...aku nk smbung baca cerpen..jap g nk on9 ngn mamat yg aku xtau nama tu..huhu aku save no dia pum aku tlis XTAU NAMA...hihi...biar lar..kwn2 je kan..bkn ada ape2 pum...
yg pntg aku bhgia ngn kwn2 aku..family aku....syukur kpd ilahi krn msih bg aku kbhgian dan kesedaran utk menginsafi kslhn aku yg dulu...syukur alhamdulillah....

kebimbangan...

asyik2 bnda sdih je aku luah kan..ermm...mesti bosan bile baca smua ni kan..tp aku xtau nk luah kat sape..aku cuma nk ctr skrg ni otak aku serabuk sngt..aku xtau nk wak apa dah ni..rasa berslh menyesal mcm2 ada..aku berslh krn x ctr dri dlu lg kat k.mie(spupu)tntg adik nya yg mngedar..skrg dah jtuh ke tgga bila aku dpt pggln pg td bhwa adik dia (basri) kena tgkap polis sbb polis jupe brg tu dgn dia..kluarga dia pun x dpt nk wak apa2 dah..aku tau dri dulu lg tp aku dah jnji ngn dia yg aku xkn bg tau kat sape2..akhr nya aku mnyesal x sudah..kalo aku tau jd mcm ni aku bg tau k.mie..lbih baik dia tggl ngn k.mie dri dia brkwn entah apa2..mnyesal pum dah xguna smua dah terjd..apa lah hkuman yg akan di alami nya..hkum gntung..????? tidakkkkk.....aku xsnggup khlgn dia..org yg aku syg..org yg slalu tlg aku bile aku prlukn nya...ya allah apa yg perlu aku buat..dulu aku dah nsht kat dia..mcm2 dah aku nsht...knp dia msih x brubah..apa yg dia mhukan...aku bmbg..tkut..slalu pkirkan dri nya..aku dah anggap dia mcm adik kndung aku..xlbh pd tu pum..aku syg dia...aku nk dia yg dulu..ceria...yg slalu buat aku tersnyum bile aku dlm ksdhan..basri....!!knp mu wak gni..??mu x syg aku ke???fmily mu...??knp mu x pkir smua tu..??bkpe mu pkir org x syg mu..rmai yg syg mu..alangkah bgus kalo mu nmpk smua ksih syg tu...knp lar aku asyik pkir psl mu..ptut lah aku rasa xsdp hati bila kori(adik)suh tpon seseorg nk dpt kpstian sape org tu..xsngka polis pum cri dia..ya allah..ujian dri mu sngguh kuat pd dri ni..ptut lar muka kori pucat smcm mcm ada sorok nape2 je..xsngka ini smua terjd..aku syg smua org...sape yg ptut di prslhkan dlm perkara ini..aku xptut mempersoalkan kjdian allah..aku ykin pasti ada hikmah di sebalik smua kjdian ni...basri...aku mntk maaf..aku terpksa ctr ke k.mie pg td...aku xsnggup dgr sore ye mcm lps ngis..aku xsnggup dgr bila sorg ibu xmkn..tdur x lena..algkah bgus nya kalo mu dpt rasa ksh syg kuarga kat mu tu..algkah bgus kalo mu dpt tgk air mata seorg kakak,seorg ibu,seorg abg thdp mu..basri....buang lar ego mu jauh2 tu..tu bkn cara nk cpt kaya...kita hdup nk dpt kredhaan allah..berkat dri NYA..smua org wak slh...bertaubat lar sblum nsi dah jd bubur...aku cuma nk mu tau yg kami smua syg mu...tlg lar hrgai og yg syg mu ni..ckup lar bg mrka mngis krn diri mu..aku hnya mmpu berdoa dri jauh utk mu...ya allah,buka kan lah pntu hati spupu ku itu utk brtaubat..utk mnjd yg terbaik..lndungi lah kami smua dri mlkukan kjhtn dan kmksiatan..brkati lah hdup kami..prmudah kn sgl urusan kami ya allah..berikan lah kami kteenangan jiwa ya allh...hnya kamu tmpt kami memohon dah meminta...mkbul kan lah doa hmba mu yg lemah ini...amin....

hati yg x tenang.. :(

smlm aku buat blog utk eng276..xsngka boleh thn jgk susah nk wak ni..bile dah pndai jd nk wak blog skmo...huhu nmpk aku mcm hepi je kan..tp dlm hati x tenang...bnyk benda yg bermain dlm pkiran aku..aku xtau nk luah kat sape..aku tkut aku akn ngis..aku xnk ngis dpn org2 yg aku syg..jd aku wk kptusan luah dlm ni je..plak tu aku xrmai kwn dlm blog ni..jd xrmai yg akn baca..aku bkn jenis suka ambik ksmptn n nk trik prhtian org..tu bkn jenis aku..slgi aku boleh usaha,aku xkn nyusah kan hdup org...tp hati aku xtenang...tiap mlm boleh di katakan aku rasa nk ngis..aku slalu pkir psl mak yg sdg skit kat umah..bdn mak smkin kurus..mkn pun jrg..ckp lg ar susah..hari ni aku ckp ngn mak..xsngka bile dlm fon suara mak x brape nk fhm..mak ckp slow je.rasa sebak sngt..dah lar adik2 msih kcik lg..aku ank sulung...aku nk jg mak adik2 ayah...tp mcm mana ngn pljrn aku..aku nk jd ckgu..aku nk smbung stdy..mslh duit lg..aku xnk nyusah kan ayah aku..stiap hari aku pkir mcm mana nk setel kan mslh ni..xlama lg aku nk final..thun dpn dah nk prktikal..mcm mana aku nk ambik kelas bi..aku nk ambik muet..ya allah...tlg lar hmba mu ini..permudahkan sgla urusan aku..bg lah aku kekuatan utk hdpi smua ni..bgtu kuat ujian yg ko bg pd aku dan fmily aku..aku dah xlarat dah nk ngis aku rasa mcm air mata aku dah kering...tp bile lihat adik2 aku yg x tau apa2..hnya tersnyum bile bermain..aku jd smgt n tbh dgn hdup ni..biar susah mana pum..aku kena hdpi jgk smua ni dgn tabah...aku yakin pasti ada hikmah di sblik smua kjdian ni..aku harap sape2 yg baca blog aku ni..doa kan lah smoga mak aku cpt smbuh..bila mak aku skit mcm2 perkara terjd dlm hdup aku...aku msih syg mak aku dan adik2 aku msih perlukan ksih seorg ibu...
adik2 aku msih kecik yg blum knl erti sbnr khdpan di dunia ini..ya allah..lndungilah kami skeluarga..aku snggup berkorban apa shj demi family aku...

MY EXPERIENCE DURING ENG276 IN SEM5,SECTION2... :)

More experience as I can on the subject eng276. For example, when I presented information about me in movie maker. From there I can recognize and know how to use movie maker with the help and guidance from my colleagues. While presenting the informative speech I felt very nervous because speaking in public but with encouragement to friends and lecturers, I have the jitters. With this activity I can know my classmates more closely to be able to know some information about themselves. Through infortmative my speech became more bold to speak to the class and in public. I no longer feel embarrassed and nervous but I was able to overcome those feelings.
Apart from the informative speech, subjects eng276 also doing what we want to attract customers to buy items that we sell. This activity is known as a persuasive speech. This activity in the group activities. Belong to a group of two people.I group with Nurul Ashikin which we promote our products on carrot juice. Experience the best part in this activity is that we have to wake up early to prepare carrot juice, it's known if early for fear of stale quickly. So we did in the early morning and presented in the afternoon. The carrot juice is for the lecturer and classmates to sample our homemade drinking water. We promote the carrot juice to our friends by telling nutritious carrots, radishes, and as its privileges. We are also told that we have a nutritious beverage businesses and halal products. This is to ensure that we can score more of our product. With this activity I can find out the actual nutritional carrot juice as well as ways to promote our pruduk selling in the market.
In addition, this class also provides a forum where the activities belong to four students.We recorded this forum and show the lecturers. With this forum activities, we co-operate in finding the information to be conveyed to the forum. We tell stories about drug abuse.Although this had been well in public, but still many more who are still abusing drugs is even more widespread among teenagers today. We want to tackle abuse of this drug because drugs are now getting dark teenage life. With this activity, I can feel that this forum gives a deep impression because I feel like being on television. i want to you know that my dreams is to become a news reader. A little confused also when can this activity be in the record even further. It's very nice.
My experience is new is giving a speech spontaneously. I was given the title by Madam Intan to present the dream bedroom. This activity is held in front Comastra. I was very nervous, shy, pounding away feeling like it is extracted. Got scared about. But this activity is fun for everyone to be speaking for 2 minutes. i talk about what is in my mind. Promise does not run on a given topic, good luck betting partners may also take the idea of ​​them. I do not have any to say so take the ideas of my partners and was able to talk in front of everyone. Each behavior is funny that the show until the Madam Intan was laughing. It's nice to be able to speak spontaneously say anything funny what play in mind and their behavior in his speech. I will not forget to state such activities.
Last Activity My class is group discussion. Where is my group will talk about the carelessness of drivers in the road. These activities run smoothly because of their expression. Common but difficult to see how well I think the brilliant ideas before presenting to the Madam Intan. We are given time to think for 2 minutes. I feel it is very fun because during my second semester I do this activity. But many I can get in this discussion group activities is to work to find ideas for 2 minutes.
Finally eng276 subject is challenging and a lot of experience I gained and get lecturers like Madam Intan Noorazlina very good and sporting. I will not forget to state my experience during the KPTM Kuantan with lecturers here. ENG276 is the subject of the most interesting and most importantly, do not enter the final examination. With this subject I can improve my speech in English and have made me more bold in making a point.